\u201cFrom now until further notice, you\u2019re no longer allowed to tell me how YOU feel.\u201d A gentle and wonderful woman (and friend) told me he said to her.<\/p>\n
The words were never said to me verbatim\u2026but their substance was. I know how it feels to be seen as \u201cless than\u201d through the eyes of a man you think you love, you live with, you dream of a future with.<\/p>\n
I told her what I had learned what feels like long ago but only hours sometimes \u201cnow, you must write how you feel.\u201d<\/p>\n
Today I realized that when I began writing again, after years of abuse and – that why I write and why so often it\u2019s so personal is – I know what it feels like not be seen. But it\u2019s more than me simply wanting to write how I feel now. I want the possibility for you, dear one to feel seen.<\/p>\n
This is not to say I want you, dear reader to see me. What I want, what I strive to do is say \u201cI see you.\u201d<\/p>\n
I hope at some point along the way I do that for you. That\u2019s what my favorite writers do for me.<\/p>\n
And until then I won\u2019t stop trying.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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